11.10.2013 | 12am
At the office, busy with work and twitter. Stressed. Demotivated. Dragging. Bored. These are the adjectives I use to best describe my work. Fair enough, I guess. Yung tipong hindi mo mararamdaman yung hangin ng AC (air-condition) kasi feeling mo stress yung binubuga nya araw-araw. Everyday seems to be a constant battle between the good and the bad side of myself.
Devil: Party hard. Don't think about work. Work sucks. Its tiresome and not at all insteresting. Just do whatever makes you happy, bitch!
Angel: Be positive. Think about the scholarship program you promise to your beloved brother. Calm down and rest everything to Him.
This is just an example of my arguement every working day. I can sometimes compost 120 reasons to stay home and be absent, but ironically one reason can defeat that 120 alibis. Dragging my whole being to work and fooling myself that, "Fuck, I love my job!", that's my personal mantra. Sorry for the expletives, but cursing is inevitable with the kind of work I have, its my way of expressing how I dislike my job and how unhappy I am with the fact that I don't have any choice but to spend 9 hours in the air-conditioned hell called office.
Anyways, I won't go through the nitty gritty of everything as it just adds up to my frustrations and predicaments towards work.
Just when I thought that everything will fall down on me and I wish that the ground will swallow me alive, a sudden twist of events took place and it effusively made me jump from my seat and almost shout.
Here it goes;
Khei, Magfile ka daw ng Vacation Leave from 12/10/2013 - 20/10/2013, sabi ng Workforce Management. - as per my boss..
That's just the only phrase I remember from the conversation I had with my boss and the only phrase that almost gave me a heart attack. It can be an overstatement for some but its true, I was overwhelmed that I instantly grabbed my friend's hands and started acting as if I was possesed by evil spirits. I was so flabbergasted and so gratefull for the wonderful news, as it means a longer time off of the phone and off of the British folks.
I was so excited that I have filed 7days worth of vacation leave including my restdays. Yipee! I exclaimed and at the back of my mind, I have already drafted my plans for the 7 days vacation.
It's the only place I can think of where I can stay at least an overnight without spending too much. I have been planning to go that place since last year. I already did a lot of research about the place and the astonishing sceneries of the town. Everything is so amazing and I am so excited and I can feel the attack of my impulsiveness runnning through my veins like an adrenaline rush. I really wanted to go, ALONE.
That's the catch, I'll be leaving ALONE. Its not the first that I travelled alone, but its the first time that I will go and ask permission. Lol!